18 April, 2009


I have been encountering a ton of tests lately.

I

feel

like
they

are
showering


down


on

me.

And I am soo happy (mostly) that in the midst of them (at times)
I am becoming more and more aware of the necessity to
be thankful for this time and these tests (instead of scared).
For if we are given food by our Creator that offers us strength,
focus (and a little/lotta pain), who are we to not be grateful (or fearful)?

Now- to be real, I totally know I am not the grateful human
that God is giving tests too all the time; probably more often
than not, I'll be the first to admit. At times I feel myself
kick and scream, mope and whine, get angry and upset over
situations... Then there are those moments where the Sun of Reality
shines on the situation and you sense your abilities and you
realize the great origin of the test and you become encumbered
with a feeling of thankfulness that you had never previously known...


I love that moment.

The following is worth the read... I assure you.

...To the sincere ones,tests are as a gift from God,
the Exalted, for a heroic person hasteneth, with the
utmost joy and gladness, to the tests of a violent
battlefield, but the coward is afraid and trembles
and utters moaning and lamentation. Likewise, an
expert student prepareth and memorizeth his lessons
and exercises with the utmost effort, and in the day of
examination he appeareth with infinite joy before the
master. Likewise, the pure gold shineth radiantly in
the fire of tests. Consequently, it is made clear that for
holy souls, trials are as the gift of God, the Exalted; but
for weak souls they are an unexpected calamity. This
test is just as thou hast written: it removeth the rust
of egotism from the mirror of the heart until the Sun
of Truth may shine therein. For, no veil is greater than
egotism and no matter how thin that covering may be,
yet it will finally veil man entirely and prevent him
from receiving a portion from the eternal bounty.
(Bahá’í World Faith—Selected Writings of Bahá’u’lláh and ‘Abdu’l-Bahá - ‘Abdu’l-Bahá Pages 371-372)

In closing- Thanks for the tests God, however much I may kick and scream. These blessings are totally helpful and I pray that my capacity increases to handle more difficult tests, however scared I may be to say this to You.

-me

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